Groceries

Groceries

By David Grivette


Tips came to 38.26 (driving pizzas)
(Have the quarter and penny in my pocket,
just in case)
Grocery store total 33.08 (Time was 11:47 p.m.
after work)
Tortillas, 2 cans of black beans, 6 eggs (bleached)
thin chicken (3.49), thick cut bacon, blackberries, 5 bananas
2 potatoes (make hash browns in morning, I think), and a big box
of mixed greens for 5.


I paid in cash, went to
the store right from work.


Usually pay with a card
and the certain visibility of
cash showed just how
close the transaction


came down to a little
coinage.


5 in my wallet,
11.82 on the card.


Cashier’s name was Kevin.
Hand’t ever seen him
before. He might be new.
They’ve been hiring. I
saw the sign. He was
brown, had little hair left,
but he smiled at me, even for
the time it was.


I got home
put all of my things
away, ticking off the
items, figuring how
their meagre cadre
might combine
to make me meals
in the week. I told
the girl I work with,
whom I love, who is
sick, that I would make
her soup Wednesday when
neither of us have work.


I don’t have the things
I need to make that
happen, but I will
because I will. I want
to make her soup and I
know I will.


This is what surviving looks
like. It’s more than
fine. I can feel how
it might get tiring though.
I walked through the fluorescent lit
aisles with others like me,
checking prices, putting things
back, and I pulled the receipt
from the trash, because it showed
how little I spent for such a feeling
of having spent a lot,
and I felt grateful
for getting to know what
this feels like.

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